i mean when i became famous it was like
我的意思是当我出名的时候，
he was the pop star nightclub queue
他就像是夜总会排队的流行歌星，
after night
一夜又一夜，
literally
事实上
i'm will young's brother i'm will
我是威尔杨的兄弟，我是威尔
young's brother he might as well have
杨的兄弟，他可能也把
got it tattooed on his forehead
它纹在了额头上，
the stories that came out to me
这些故事传到了我耳中
the amount of people that know rupa
around london is insane
在伦敦认识鲁帕的人多得惊人，
particularly if it's
尤其是她是
a pretty brunette
个漂亮的黑发女孩
oh i've met your brother yeah i bet you
哦，我见过你哥哥，是的，我打赌你
have
见过，
i found out later that rupert was
后来我发现鲁帕特
partying a lot during pop idol
在流行偶像期间经常参加派对，
that's when
那时他
the drinking
started taking hold more
开始酗酒，
but i think the important thing to note
但是 我认为需要注意的重要一点
is that the anxiety and depression that
是，
rupert felt
鲁珀特
was there before the alcohol
在喝酒之前就感受到了焦虑和抑郁，他
look how young it looks
看起来多年轻啊，
he must have had just had a stress
他一定只是有压力，
because he always used to shave his head
因为他总是剃光头，
when he yes he did
是的，
when he was when he'd had a stress or
他 当他有压力或
help was about to have a stress
帮助即将有压力
sample though yes did she i thought that
样本虽然是的她我认为那
was me peterson's stupid
是我彼得森的愚蠢的
nice sake rupert too yes yes that's true
好缘故鲁珀特也是是的那是真的
which was a rarity in the latest
这是最新的罕见是
yes
good times yes happiness happy times
好时光是幸福快乐时光
good times
好 次
[Music]
[音乐]
i'd like to know the moment it went
我想知道
wrong as we go through his life no i was
他生命中什么时候出了问题，不，我有点
sort of thinking you know because as you
想，你知道，因为当你
go through
经历的时候，
there was nothing wrong with him at this
他在这个阶段没有任何问题，
stage at all
and yet
但当
when he died he was all screwed up where
他去世时，他 一切都搞砸了，
did that screw start turning
那个螺丝是从哪里开始转动的，然后
what came with the drinking
喝酒就发生了
was then the drama
戏剧性的事情，然后
and they kind of then wouldn't be
他们就不愿意
separated
分开了，
so
所以
i could tell really quickly
我很快就能看出来
if he was drunk
他是否喝醉了，
you know that look in his eye yes you
你知道他眼里的那种眼神，是的，你还
remember yes and you'd see it
记得，是的 你会看到它，
and i'd think
我会想
when's he going to turn yeah
他什么时候会转身，是的
and it would just turn he would turn
，它就会转身，他会转身，
wouldn't he and it was scary
不是吗，这很可怕，
i remember scuffles fighting with him in
我记得在我家的厨房里和他打架，
the kitchen in my house
you know wrestling a knife away
你知道，用刀子搏斗
calling the police
still to this day if the phone rings
直到今天，如果深夜电话响起，
late at night my heart
我的心
sinks to my
就会沉下来，
boots
because it always passage to some form
因为它总是会传递某种形式
of crisis and
的危机和
threat or the police
威胁，或者警察，
i mean literally he could be anywhere
我的意思是，他可能在任何地方，
he's on a beach in
他在纽波特的海滩上，
newport somewhere i mean literally could
我 意思是说可能会在
end up anywhere
任何地方结束，
and we would sweep in and try and fix
我们会迅速赶来，试图解决
the problem of course you would you
问题，当然你
don't think about it do you you would
不会考虑这个问题吧 你就会
just go into you
go into rescue mode i mean i don't even
进入救援模式，我的意思是我甚至不
remember can you think of the amount of
记得你能想起
times we've taken them to
我们带他们去
priory in bristol or zingy or yes
布里斯托尔修道院或辛吉的次数吗，是的，
i think i felt
我想我感觉到
help a sense of helplessness
帮助，一种无助感，
yeah
i think i just thought my gosh i really
我 我觉得我只是想我的天啊我真的
don't think
不认为
you're going to get out of this
你会摆脱这个
you
你